Caught in a Lie

So you thought I wouldn't know
I'm not that dumb
You thought it wouldn't show
Why didn't you come?
You lied to me
You held back the truth
You didn't see
I knew how to fight back
Liars never win
Lovers never lose
If you change your mind
Maybe I won't go yet [no, too late]
Show me a different side of you
No, wait, you already did
Keep your old self
And keep those bad habits id
You got caught in a lie
And no one to blame but you
It may be your high
But it's my low too


Past Memories

Okay, so maybe I was wrong.
There's a long story behind my heartbreak,
and an even longer one behind yours.
I blame it on my heartache.
Well then, maybe it wasn't you.
Maybe it wasn't me either.
All my friends pushed me to the edge,
and I just needed a breather.
You know parts of what I've been through,
and you've heard my fights.
You helped me to laugh,
even kept tears from my nights.
Your voice was soothing,
and my smile was the best.
I watched only you,
and didn't care about the rest.
I lie on your shoulder,
while you just sit there.
Thoughts are dull in my head.
We aren't going anywhere.
What happened after words
might've just been a mistake.
I guess the routine got old,
and you needed a break.
But now that I'm shaking,
and scared of tomorrow,
where are you
to fight away my sorrow?


Still Waiting for Perfection

I'm not stupid
And you know I'm not blind.
So why do you do this,
Knowing you can't rewind?
I've heard them say
"Once an alcoholic, always."
But you have to try
to make it these days.
Addictions lead you on,
And obsessions cause pain.
There's so much to lose;
You know there's nothing to gain.
So please come home,
And try again, for me.
Maybe soon enough
We'll have a better family.


Problems

What's wrong with you?
Why won't you listen?
You interrupt me,
And your eyes glisten
With a knowing flame
Of gathering hate,
But then I realized
It was too late.
Regret isn't a factor
When I look at you;
Cruel lies
Are coming through.
I see you holding back
From family and friends
Although it seems
You never met ends.
Now my money is in your pocket,
And my friends hate me.
Food makes me sick,
And I miss my family.
May I ask?
Why must you do
all of this to me?
Is it to make me say 'I love you'?